Watching and listening to things that get us talking non stop til the wee hours of the morning- laughing, crying and sharing all the things. I could have only become the person I am today knowing this kind of love. We both left ucsc broken. We emerged with a family.
He is not here. He will no longer visit or live near me again. He will never see Clover grow up or go to the gardens with us again. There will be no more dinners at Temari or bike rides along the bay. No more sunsets or frozen yogurt or anime. He will never finish his PhD and become Dr. Bennett. He will never paint or read a great book. He will never sip chai or enjoy great conversation. We will never go to Santa Cruz. He will never be my housemate. I can never hug him or tell him how amazing he is because now he is gone and I did not even get to say goodbye.
We went on an outing to Berkeley with Jason and made a stop at the Berkeley’s downtown public library. There were puppets and sing-a-longs of “If You Are Happy and You Know It.” Jason is a a good friends of Emma’s and we are missing him now that he is gone.
First the Lake Merritt gardens of course
and there was this pink tree…
then the Morcom Rose Garden
posing in front of this green wall